One line destroyed hope

I'm bloated and my feet hurt
But not for the reason I hoped
Patting my stomach on a long train journey
But not for the reason I hoped
Getting irritated at the Chronic cougher next to me
But not for the reason I hoped
Feeling tired and close to sleeping
But not for the reason I hoped
Had a few dizzy spells to the point where I'm leaning against walls
But not for the reason I hoped
Feeling sick and sometimes throwing up
But not for the reason I hope
Checking out baby stuff despite being 24
But not for the reason I hoped
Breasts are itchy though it hurts to touch them
But not for the reason I hoped
Trying to avoid smoking
But not for the reason I hoped
Smiling at the baby next to me on the last train
But not for the reason I hoped
My memory, coordination and nerve are heavily compromised
But not for the reason I hoped
Feeling irritable and moody
But not for the reason I hoped
My back hurts a little
But not for the reason I hoped
Wanting to burst into tears despite being in a public place
But not for the reason I hoped
Staring at a long thin stick
But one line destroys what little hope I had